Saturday, November 28, 2009
11:48 PM
Still waiting...
Still wanting...
Still anticipating...
Paranoia...
Still waiting...
Still wanting...
Still anticipating...
Paranoia...
Was suppose to go out last week with dearest.
However she had a change of plan.
No we're not attached yet, maybe, who even knows.
I've got loads of things in my mind.
Loads of questions that need answering.
My path have somewhat changed.
I thought by leaving my past behind,
I'd change to a better person.
However i'm still the same.
What is going on with me.
However she had a change of plan.
No we're not attached yet, maybe, who even knows.
I've got loads of things in my mind.
Loads of questions that need answering.
My path have somewhat changed.
I thought by leaving my past behind,
I'd change to a better person.
However i'm still the same.
What is going on with me.
Been having this awful pain at my back.
Been sick these past few days.
Been feeling nauseous.
Been feeling this pain in the chest.
Been sick these past few days.
Been feeling nauseous.
Been feeling this pain in the chest.
Give More
Expect Less
Expect Less
Those were my principals in life.
I still have to keep those principals in me.
Dear God,
If we're not meant to be, please lighten my suffering. It is in our nature to give more, and expect even more. Please God, give me the strength to give more, and expect the least from the people I love. Let me love them,please them, make their life for the better, however, if they did of the opposite to me, please let me have the strength to overcome the challenges that lay ahead.
I know of my sins...I know of my pasts...I am wary of the sentence...But please, so as long as i am still breathing,i will still repent.I will return of the favor that i've asked from you. And being the Al-Mighty one,surely You'd still remember my desires in life...I hope that the calling shall and will come...However i'm not ready yet.
I still have to keep those principals in me.
Dear God,
If we're not meant to be, please lighten my suffering. It is in our nature to give more, and expect even more. Please God, give me the strength to give more, and expect the least from the people I love. Let me love them,please them, make their life for the better, however, if they did of the opposite to me, please let me have the strength to overcome the challenges that lay ahead.
I know of my sins...I know of my pasts...I am wary of the sentence...But please, so as long as i am still breathing,i will still repent.I will return of the favor that i've asked from you. And being the Al-Mighty one,surely You'd still remember my desires in life...I hope that the calling shall and will come...However i'm not ready yet.
Being Licked At 7:46 AM
Monday, November 09, 2009
Finally updating!Hahas!
Sorry guys, have been busy with my busy schedule.
Well, this is my 3rd week working in St Regis!
Damn it's fun...
Everyday, i wake up looking forward to be at work!Hahas!
The first week was dreadful though, DON'T ASK!
Well enough of work, let's talk about life!
Hahas..
Well it's true, someone once said that "Life itself is an irony"
True!Haha!
However, i've been trying to amend my ways.
Yes...
Amend!
Amend and Repent.
I've learn that in life, never EVER return someone's hatred,ego,anger,or plain silliness towards you.
The best is to forget about their mistake,and never to repeat them.
Yes in the past, i've made mistakes to people,and some people have made mistakes towards me.
I'll forgive them for whatever they have done, and start over a new leaf.
However, for those who choose to return the way i've treated them against me,it's just a stupid decision.
Don't ever waste your life,please..
If i have ignored you in the past due to certain reasons,don't ignore me now as it will just make you,into me.(Reflection)And you are no better.
I've decided to stop all my nonsense.
I've decided to stop naming myself the victim.
I've decided to stop keeping all the hatred in me.
I've decided to stop blaming the world simply because it did not go my way.
Believe,Surrender,Obey
I've started reading some old holy scripts, and history and have seen what brutality God has in favor for those who oppose him.
And that God still loves you,why?Cause He is still letting your lungs take in oxygen,to live...
I've also learn some of the basic things that people just overlook.
YES,You are required to pray 5 times a day.
YES,You are required to cleanse your body so that your Solat will be "Sah".
YES,You are required to take the Wudhu' before Solat.
These are the things that people are too focused on.
However, everybody overlooked this matter.
In order for the body to be fully cleanse, Istinjak is the main factor.
If you do not perform Istinjak,your Wudhu will not fulfill it's purpose,and neither will your Solat be "Sah".And you have just missed your prayers for the whole day.
Once,Rasulullah S.A.W was walking with his comrades where all of a sudden, he took some leaves to be placed on a tomb. His comrades asked,"Why have you done such action?"
Rasulullah S.A.W replied,"For the soul in this tomb is tortured,not because of which he didn't fulfill God's wishes,however,he didn't perform his Istinjak,therefore, i place these leaves so that the Angels would lighten his torture,until the leaves are crippled,then and only then will his heavy torture resume"
The simplest thing like cleaning yourself can make you suffer in the afterlife.
So ask yourself this, how much do you know of your religion?
Yes,i can be an ironc sometimes when it comes to this topic,however i imbed these knowledge deep in me,and the reason why you are always turning down and mocking me of these subject is because you know that you have committed a sin.
I'm no Saint,nor a Religious Teacher,however i've not forgoten on who gave me life,and tp who will my soul return to.
I thank my Mother for sending me still to these Islamic studies, even though some people might just laugh at me saying that,"You're still in Ngaji classes?Haven't you completed?You're too old for this"
The further you age,the deeper you need to dig for knowledge.
For Mercenarian's new original entittled, "Time"
You will realise how much meaningful the lyrics are.
Yes,i'm trying to implement certain religious value into my songs.
Here's a short stanza,
Satan is calling,
Commanding him venerate.
For the sermons decieved,
Manipulating minds besieged.
These stanzas have a greater meaning.Ponder over it.
I'm not afraid to be mocked by my fellow friends about this.
Because at the end of the day,you know of what is right,and what is wrong.
Angels And Demons is such a bore!haha!!!
Sorry guys, have been busy with my busy schedule.
Well, this is my 3rd week working in St Regis!
Damn it's fun...
Everyday, i wake up looking forward to be at work!Hahas!
The first week was dreadful though, DON'T ASK!
Well enough of work, let's talk about life!
Hahas..
Well it's true, someone once said that "Life itself is an irony"
True!Haha!
However, i've been trying to amend my ways.
Yes...
Amend!
Amend and Repent.
I've learn that in life, never EVER return someone's hatred,ego,anger,or plain silliness towards you.
The best is to forget about their mistake,and never to repeat them.
Yes in the past, i've made mistakes to people,and some people have made mistakes towards me.
I'll forgive them for whatever they have done, and start over a new leaf.
However, for those who choose to return the way i've treated them against me,it's just a stupid decision.
Don't ever waste your life,please..
If i have ignored you in the past due to certain reasons,don't ignore me now as it will just make you,into me.(Reflection)And you are no better.
I've decided to stop all my nonsense.
I've decided to stop naming myself the victim.
I've decided to stop keeping all the hatred in me.
I've decided to stop blaming the world simply because it did not go my way.
Believe,Surrender,Obey
I've started reading some old holy scripts, and history and have seen what brutality God has in favor for those who oppose him.
And that God still loves you,why?Cause He is still letting your lungs take in oxygen,to live...
I've also learn some of the basic things that people just overlook.
YES,You are required to pray 5 times a day.
YES,You are required to cleanse your body so that your Solat will be "Sah".
YES,You are required to take the Wudhu' before Solat.
These are the things that people are too focused on.
However, everybody overlooked this matter.
In order for the body to be fully cleanse, Istinjak is the main factor.
If you do not perform Istinjak,your Wudhu will not fulfill it's purpose,and neither will your Solat be "Sah".And you have just missed your prayers for the whole day.
Once,Rasulullah S.A.W was walking with his comrades where all of a sudden, he took some leaves to be placed on a tomb. His comrades asked,"Why have you done such action?"
Rasulullah S.A.W replied,"For the soul in this tomb is tortured,not because of which he didn't fulfill God's wishes,however,he didn't perform his Istinjak,therefore, i place these leaves so that the Angels would lighten his torture,until the leaves are crippled,then and only then will his heavy torture resume"
The simplest thing like cleaning yourself can make you suffer in the afterlife.
So ask yourself this, how much do you know of your religion?
Yes,i can be an ironc sometimes when it comes to this topic,however i imbed these knowledge deep in me,and the reason why you are always turning down and mocking me of these subject is because you know that you have committed a sin.
I'm no Saint,nor a Religious Teacher,however i've not forgoten on who gave me life,and tp who will my soul return to.
I thank my Mother for sending me still to these Islamic studies, even though some people might just laugh at me saying that,"You're still in Ngaji classes?Haven't you completed?You're too old for this"
The further you age,the deeper you need to dig for knowledge.
For Mercenarian's new original entittled, "Time"
You will realise how much meaningful the lyrics are.
Yes,i'm trying to implement certain religious value into my songs.
Here's a short stanza,
Satan is calling,
Commanding him venerate.
For the sermons decieved,
Manipulating minds besieged.
These stanzas have a greater meaning.Ponder over it.
I'm not afraid to be mocked by my fellow friends about this.
Because at the end of the day,you know of what is right,and what is wrong.
Angels And Demons is such a bore!haha!!!
Being Licked At 6:31 AM
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Kesalku
Verse
Engkau bagaikan
Mutiara didalam hidupku
Apabila kegelapan
Engkau menjadi cahaya sinarku
Kata-kata cintamu
Masih terngiang ditelingaku
Sekarang yang ada
Hanya kesepian dijiwaku
Chorus
Dewi engkau adalah segala-galanya
Ku mohon maaf atas kesilapanku
Sayang dan rindu masih kekal dihatiku
Yang tinggal
Kesalku
Kesalku
Verse
Kini aku keseorangan
Tiada lagi engkau disisiku
Apa yang terjadi
Menyakitkan seluruh jiwaku
Bagaikan kaca
Dipecahkan seribu batu
Titisan airmata
Menenggelami diriku
Chorus
Dewi engkau adalah segala-galanya
Ku mohon maaf atas kesilapanku
Sayang dan rindu masih kekal dihatiku
Yang tinggal
Kesalku
Kesalku
This song is dedicated to Iraah and Adam who is going through a difficult phase in life...And yes Adam,i was inspired by your courage to do the things you need to do by composing this song.
Believe it or not Adam,i was once in your shoe too...Having to decide,then,having to let go...It hurts doesn't it?It really hurts..
Reminds me of Someone...
Having to be deeply in love...However it was shattered by uncertainty...
No,it wasn't shattered by Lies,nor Hate,nor Loyalty...
It was uncertainty...Of what the future holds...
To tell both of you the truth,i wasn't even concern about your problems...
It was only when Amoi started telling me about the seriousness of it...
And when i look at Adam,he just reminds me of myself...And when i look at Iraah,she reminds me of myself and Someone...
Yea,both of you are in the wrong...But i shan't discourage the act that Adam did...
To Adam:
Bro,it took a lot of courage to stand up for your love for Iraah...And made that decision...If only Iraah knew the pain you had to go through...
To Iraah:
Hey little girl,i can see the pain in your eyes...Reading your blog,i felt your love for Adam,it was out of this world...Adam means a lot to you...But the truth has been spoken...
Adam,take a few minutes to read the lyrics of Kesalku...I composed that song cause i felt the emotions in you...That is something i'll still respect in you Bro...
And to Iraah,here's my other original,take a few minutes to read it...No matter what,say to yourself,"Aku Masih Mampu"..
Aku Masih Mampu
Verse
Aku berjalan seorang diri
Di dalam kegelapan ini
Namun tiada yang datang
Untuk menemuiku lagi
Berteman seorang diri
Aku nyanyikan lagu rindu
Lagu untuk mengubati diriku
Jiwaku kesepian lagi
Chorus
Namun aku masih mampu
Untuk berdiri lagi
Engkau hanyalah sejarah
Dan sebuah ilusi
Verse
Ku membuka cerita baru
Di dalam buku hidupku
Untuk mencari teman baru
Dan menyayangi selalu
Wahai sejarahku
Lupakanlah masa silam
Pergi jauh dariku
Jangan kau kembali
Chorus
Namun aku masih mampu
Untuk berdiri lagi
Engkau hanyalah sejarah
Dan sebuah ilusi
And the next song,is dedicate to Someone....
It's almost 2 years since we've known each other....I'm sorry for the mistakes i've made against you...
A cover from Osairis called,"Insan Yang Aku Kagumi"
Being Licked At 5:49 AM
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Just made a new account in youtube...
Want to showcase my love for slow songs!Hehe!Thanks to Stino or AnakDajal for the inspiration!
Here's my first Solo Original!
I'm going to concentrate on having my solo career in music too!Hahas...But Mercenarian and Iron Child comes first though!Hehe!
Want to showcase my love for slow songs!Hehe!Thanks to Stino or AnakDajal for the inspiration!
Here's my first Solo Original!
I'm going to concentrate on having my solo career in music too!Hahas...But Mercenarian and Iron Child comes first though!Hehe!
Being Licked At 9:48 AM
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Some pics from Blackbird Gathering!
Council Of Blackbird(Crow not in picture though!)
Council Of Blackbird(Crow not in picture though!)
Being Licked At 8:18 AM
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Nightwish - Amaranth
Next gig,this is one of the few songs in Mercenarian's playlist...
Oh my....Haha!
Imagine me singing this song?Haha!!!!
Oh well,a good vocalist is the versatile one!
Tomorrow is National Day!
Well, i'm not a patriotic guy,but meeting my Brothers and Sisters are the thoughts that intrigues me!
But such a dear,i have to bring along my 11-Year-Old Brother!Haha
Ah well,got to prepare myself for my adult life!
When you have your own kids,you can't just leave them at home can't you!Haha...
And i really hope to go to New Zealand!
Wee!!!!
Hmm!I'm into talking about Woman,wait,Chicks!,who are vocalist for some of the most greatest band!
Tarja of Nightwish!Well the old Nightwish!
Simone Simons of Epica!
Sirenia,Unsun,Within Temptation all fall 2nd class after them!
And i found a new band,Echoes of Eternity!
Oh my!The vocalist,such a chick!Orgasm!(Like what Someone always say)
Gotthard is another great band...His voice is sooo.....Manly?
Here is a song for all of you guys...
Crucifica mi amore
Si mi amor me ciega
Crucifica mi amore
Si este me libera
Nunca saber, nunca confiar,
Este amor debe ver un color
Crucifica mi amore
Si este fuera asi
Oscila mi tristeza
La siento al reves
Cuanda el viento llora
Dire adios
Trate aprender, trate encontrar,
Extenderme por la eternidad
Donde esta la respuesta
Sera por siempre
Its one of the most sweetest lyrics ever written!
There was once,i've ever chatted with this girl whom i was deeply in love with...
She would sing to me while playing her piano...
Hahas...But it's all in memories...
Oh and one more thing!
Japanese 80's Rock made todays dumb Cosplay!Haha!
Being Licked At 8:50 AM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
The Counsel of Blackbirds are going to have a meeting this coming Sunday...
Can't wait...
Finally,getting back all my brothers and sisters on the same side...And having some real peace and order...
And the Counsel is going to have some serious talking on how to handle some issues regarding the East...Somebody has been acting way to irrational,and have cause others grieve...It will be up to the Five Pillars of the Counsel to settle it...
Amen..
Can't wait...
Finally,getting back all my brothers and sisters on the same side...And having some real peace and order...
And the Counsel is going to have some serious talking on how to handle some issues regarding the East...Somebody has been acting way to irrational,and have cause others grieve...It will be up to the Five Pillars of the Counsel to settle it...
Amen..
Being Licked At 7:29 AM
